"I Go Walking In Your Landscape."

On Blast: Radiohead - "There There."

I feel like I look like a total asshole when I'm at the car wash...  I don't have enough money to afford the regular car wash where you stay in the car the whole time and keep your car in neutral, so I go to those shady $2.50 self car washes where you basically look like an asshole and try to finish presoaking, soaping, rinsing, and waxing before the allotted 4 minutes is up.  Basically I look like a retard trying to wash my car...  I'm all over the place, getting soaked by hose, covered in suds, and drenched in sweat by the end of the day.  Also, these self car washes always seem to be centered in the shitty part of town, so not only do I look like an asshole, I get whistled at and witness drug deals at the same time.  All I want is a clean car :(.

But I've been having a pretty retarded week...  I've been kind of all over the place, getting flustered, and taking serious note of my stupidity.  Anyway, I'm exhausted, I need to update my ipod playlists since I have nothing else to do.

Happy Father's Day.

-KJ.

"It's Like Rain On Your Wedding Day."

On Blast: Alanis Morissette - "Ironic."

So I've been thinking about this, which is kind of an excessive use of my time, but whatever... Anyway, what if life were like the video to "Ironic" by Alanis Morissette?

I'd fucking love it.  I already talk to myself in my car, so I probably would look a little less crazy if there were three other me's in the car.  Okay, so maybe people driving in the lane next to me would see myself and my three other doppelgangers and freak the fuck out, but at least I wouldn't be the crazy one.  I mostly drive by myself...  On the rare occasion, I'll be in a friend's car or I'll have one or two people in my car, but for the most part, it's just KJ, party of one.  I'll admit, I do talk to myself a lot in the car...  I'm guilty of that.  Maybe I should have started out by saying that I sing loudly in the car, but it's too late now... yes, I fucking talk to myself in the car.

Okay, I think we've settled that I'm a little bit crazy, but fuck it, in conclusion, I think it would be fucking awesome to have three other people in my car at all times.  My car is usually filled with my shit anyway, I bet it would be better to have three cool kids to talk to.

...Nevermind, I think I would piss myself off.

-KJ.

"It's a Shock, Shock To Your Soft Side."

On Blast: Yeah Yeah Yeahs - "Soft Shock."

So I'm officially 21, which is a lot better than I had anticipated.  It's probably the first time in a while I felt older on my birthday.  I remember turning 18 and seriously being like... "so what?" which was odd to me because I remember the feeling of getting older on my 16th and 17th birthdays.  From age 18-20, I really didn't feel anything, probably because I didn't really celebrate it that big but I just felt like the same person.  Anyway, I went to San Francisco and spent my birthday with Melissa and we went to Dragon Bar... I thought it would just be a chill and whatever experience but it turned out to be really fun and I met a bunch of people who were really nice.  It was a lot different than 18 and up clubs, a lot less creeps and stuff, but that night really got me excited for the days ahead.

I've taken advantage of being 21 to the max.  This has seriously been one of the best weeks I've had in a long time, even with the whole "almost fainting" in school thing, but I do realize who my friends are and who I want to be.  

On a random note, I did work BeerFest this weekend as well having a girls' night out with Mindy and Audrey.

=FUN.

-KJ.